Saturday, April 19, 2008

I MISS MY MOTHER!!

Today April 19, 1989 my mothers life ended. Wow, what a total mind blower for me. I remember crying non stop for two days, like non stop!!
Memories deep in me of her in her younger years. Memories of her through her middle life. Memories of her in her senior years. Memories of the final chapter, which hurt beyond words.
Even through her heavy alcoholism, she was still a hot blooded Italian momma!! I have thanked God hundreds of times for the mother and father he gave me.
I loved my mother!
I miss you mom!!

Merrily

13 comments:

Katrina Holmes (Tina) said...

Merrily,
I can totally understand the feelings. I cannot count the times I have so badly wished I could talk to my mother again. She was the one person in the world I could feel safe enough with to bear my soul. Losing your mother is a loss beyond words and there have been so many times I have thought those exact words " I miss my mother!, I want my mother!, I need my mother!!

MERBEAR said...

Tina,
I know you know!! It takes one to know one!!

Mothers are a one of a kind. No one seems to love like a mother.

Love you Tina,

Chels:) said...

Aww Momma Mer i know that exact feeling that you yourself have experienced and are experiancing today..I lost my dad not to long ago and i still feel the sorrow and pain today ..but thank God that you have your awesome Sara Star and Luke and now your wonderful new Mark and Court :) And i still have my momma and sisters and now God has blessed us with Jason and our wonderful new family In Canada including yourself:) God is truly Awesome !!! I LOVE YOU MER :)

MERBEAR said...

Chelsea!! You just made me cry. Hear I am grieving at the age of 57!!!!!!!
I lost my mom when I was 38 and my dad when I was 43!
My heart aches for you, such a young girl loosing her dad.
But Chelsea, you totally rock!!!
I just love how gutsy and strong and beautiful and lovely and christian you are.
What you just wrote to me was like it was coming from an aged elder woman instructing the young. Something wrong here with the picture.
To find it is a 15 year old girl than can teach this old girl a few things about life.
Yes Chels, I will count my blessings and thank you for reminding me my dear little friend
Love you so much and say hello to the other little treasure Alli.

Chels:) said...

aww i love you mer :) i was speaking from my heart to you :) i cant wait to see you agian :) i will make sure i will tell alli you said hi :) thank you so much for being awesome mer :) love you see you soon give your girls and luke a hug for me :)

Josh Rivas said...

Mer,
Some day it will be me crying for my mom. I can't imagine life without her, she's the best. You will have to help me through when my time comes. Thank God we have God and Friends to help us!

Love, Natalie

MERBEAR said...

My dear precious little Natalie,
I know you and I know how much you love your mom. You two are very close like I was with my mother. More like best friends, tight girl buds. I could talk to my mom about literally anything and I valued her opinions. When she would really laugh; it was contagious!! Laughter from within, tears running down her face. I miss my mom deeply Natalie!!
I pray I never live to see the day Natalie, but if God ever wills it that I out live your mom, I know I will be there for you. I will try to put back into you everything you and Willie have put into me and my children.
I love all of you and pray your momma outlives us all!!!

Jerms said...

sis,I know how u feel.. but I did'nt loose my mom but I do know how it feels to loose a family member.. it hurts but every creature are living on Gods grace and mercy.


everything that dies. brings new life.

it's apart of life's circle

all of us gotta remeber that

if she was still alive,I know she would proud.

god knows how hard it is to raise kids and he knows how hard you had to work and god blessed you and will continue to bless you

Jerms said...

ugh me and my typos

MERBEAR said...

Wow, Jerms!!!
You young people are blowing me away! Deep thoughts Jeremy!! Thank you from my heart.

Very kind words and very thoughtful of you.

I was expressing my heart on April 19th,,, who would have known you young people would show up on the scene and write such kind, lasting words to me.

God Bless You so very much!!

Jerms said...

it's not my words, it's gods

it's not my thoughts, it's gods

it's not my wisdom, it's gods

but god does use his vessels

Katrina Holmes (Tina) said...

Just been thinking about you today!

MERBEAR said...

How very nice of you!!! To be 100% honest Tina, I was thinking about you too!!! Crazy baby!! Good things!!
I need to have you come over for a tea and we can spend some time together, it has been so long.
Love you Tina,
You are a special lady,